matrix

this was becoming a technological redundancy a la the matrix, so I've consolidated:

http://henryvoland.wordpress.com/

see you there.

HV

Forgotten

I have not forgotten my place, I have been exploring various media to further elaborate on the casualties of morality upon us all. I certainly have not developed a solution – I never will completely, but I believe that I can get close to realizing why each day is driven by values we merely accept as the masters over expression. Everyone looks for that breaking point daily – you watch a car chase, bloody movies, porn – fantasy upon fantasy because morality has left you dull, inhibited and you need a release of your instincts. And even if I do find my answer, it won’t be your answer. A constitution for the people, by the people but against mundane registrations of doctrine. The subconscious would no longer have to dream, but live!

HV

Redundant Tasks

I watch the same people perform the same daily tasks as I perform my same tasks, daily. Tomorrow is not another day. It is the same day. The old man in his old yellow Mercedes will arrive tomorrow by pulling into his parking spot too quickly and be out of alignment with the striping. The young man who limps in gym clothes will come in his new Mercedes - sometimes with crutches, sometimes just limping - but always limping, for years.. The woman with a car painted as if it had vines across it will come. Her illusions are poorly executed, or she would not be here, daily. The man that downgraded from a Porsche to an Accord will walk briskly to be sure no one sees his downgrade. The owner downstairs will put things in his dated Mercedes. The old green jeep will rumble in. I will sit here, completing and re-completing the same tasks, marking my time by others marking theirs.

HV

Today

Today I’m going to try something, even if it fails. I’ve been failing at nothing for too long.

HV

Art

This is an overwhelming subject to which I have probably 247 pages worth of opinion, fact, and thesis on - to which I'm going to boil it down to one statement:

Art is not regulated to currency, production, or formatting - if you subject it to any of these demons, you have created a product. The value of art is indeterminate. Indeterminate. In - de - fucking - terminate.

HV

iNationalism

I fear to tread on nationalism. I’ve previously stated that we have been victims to national historical lessons which are predicated on religious ideologies, cultural claims and any kind of ‘value’ that we claim to hold as unifed communities. I hate ‘value’ as a term, but I have to use it to make a point since its ambiguity is inexplicably polarizing to a concept. In any case, nationalism. I started a year ago with this as a reasoning to drive the strength of communities to develop, create and thrive. I cast it aside quickly as I realized the dangers of, again, historical doctrines as well as anti-aliasing between cultures. I’m not back-tracking to say “lets start here now”. I’ve still moved beyond this, but I think there is a potential here. Pride is tricky, but no less than Hope in that when it falls, it falls hard into Despair. But restart that Pride and people have drive. We may all need a new pride currently, as the United States continues to flucuate from its dominance. But I tread lightly on saying that We the People need to restart American Pride to make the United States great again. Instead, I the Person should focus on that strength that develops, creates and thrives. When I have created, and someone else has created, the United we are stronger. If I ask others to make me better, I make them weaker because I have not created. iNationalism. First, foremost and under my determination. What should I do then to make myself better? How can I if Nationalism deters the evolution of iNationalism? (refer to History post)

How awful is our day-in-age that I need to write this as iNationalism in order to relate to the modern man? Maybe I start there.

HV

Naked Time

If everyone had to be naked in public, we would all be healthier. You would make sure you ran, played, ate well. You would be happier. Work would be cut down in hours so that you could enjoy life more and get that exercise to feed your vanity. That's probably the only time vanity is worthwhile...your health. Instead, we sit on our covered asses on cushioned chairs doing meaningless work as we slowly bloat away. Movie stars look great into their 50s now...because they have time to work out as part of their schedule. Work should end at 2:00 and then everyone should engage in some activity - required. Doesn't matter what, just that for 2 hours you engage the physical after 6 hours of mental. Do you really work all 9 hours within the day? Shouldn't some of it be devoted to you, not your equally bloated boss who has become your overseer and detriment to your health? If you want to convince him, come into work naked. When people have a problem, state that you'd look better if you had a healthier timetable. Then come into work fit - and naked. No one ever complains about a beautiful nude body. Maybe conservative Christians do. Hey...weren't they the cause of this problem in the first place?

HV

Noah

Noah let everyone off the boat, they multiplied, divided, expanded, and then god chose sides? Was it really that bad before the boat?

HV

Meaningful

I want to do something meaningful. But what is meaningful? Traditional history has deemed certain activities meaningful, and yet a meaningful existence implies an alteration to historical traditions. Is there a contradiction then that we inspire the youth to become meaningful and yet preach to them the doctrines of history in order to register with society? When is something meaningful? When it changes the course of history for a previously unforeseen benefit? Why then is anything meaningful – as it applies to positives only? World War 2 was not, by definition, meaningful – it was filled with death and destruction – and yet it was filled with positive outcomes from government unions to technologies to awareness. Does that make WW2 meaningful, not meaningful, or less-than-stellar-meaningful? Think of what you have as a result of WW2 at the cost of millions of lives. Nihilism is a bitch sometimes.

HV

Periwinkle

Does does periwinkle come in colors other than blue? Or can we just name it periwinkle and drop the blue? Its pretentious.

HV

Progress

Abstract. Occupy. Evolve.

is to

Fantasy baseball. Television. E-Life.

HV

History

I've had a love-hate relationship with the concept of history and those that exploit it's references. While its lessons are invaluable, its underlining message is a manner of indoctrinating those that it teaches. Take a student from Anywhere: he grows up learning his national history, its 'values' and its position in the world. Then take a student from anywhere else in the world and do the same thing. History has now formed two individuals based on their birth location and pits them against each other with 'cultural pride'. Then, in juxtaposition for each individual, we offer opportunity by stating "free will". With such refinement against obvious contradiction, the free will then becomes open to suggestion. "If I am free, then I have a right to decide what I believe in." But did you ever? Your "free will" is programmed now. What is your freedom from? Oppression from governments? That's physical. The damage is routed in your education - what you know, what you perceive and what you hope to accomplish. The juxtaposition of freedom and history is to establish you as a national. I grew up with you, you grew up with us, we grew up together - let's preserve that. But what is it you defend? Your land, your ideas, your customs? They aren't yours. They belong to history.

HV

Remove

I have to remove myself from history to re-establish my instincts.

HV

A River Runs Through It

Japan's rainfall water runoff management rivers:
http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3118/2407877562_7b01b62506.jpg?v=0

Los Angeles' rainfall water runoff management rivers:
http://incubate.files.wordpress.com/2009/02/44758696.jpg

HV

Righteousness

Dying? No, I'm not afraid of dying. I know that the intent of living is to create, expand, and thrive. That is the purposes we have given ourselves, that we have defined. That is the drive we have been instilled with since long ago. We are ordered to function within a certain capacity, achieve specific goals, and then regurgitate the message to the next generation. As a result, we achieve righteousness. The fear of dying is therefore not the end of life, but the failures of living. The 'fear' is to have lived below our capabilities; capabilities according to doctrine. The result is a necessity to establish an extension of life so one may truly live, truly be happy.

Righteousness is an application passed down through generations as a goal to achieve, follow and be restricted by. It is not a measure of holiness, it is a control unit as well as a compensation of incomplete work: mortality. And through this filter only some will live to the fullest extent - the fullest potential of all capable expression and experience. Those that remove themselves from righteousness have removed themselves from doctrine - from moral regret. This is where righteousness cannot exist - as only comprehension and acceptance reside here. The fear of dying now becomes the restrictions upon instinct and the inability to experience life. The result is a desire to learn, to create, to live. The fear then no longer applies as the role of 'create, expand, and thrive' has been realized within a lifetime.

With this said, our capabilities are continuously regulated: by history, by religion, even by your own parents. How else would doctrine resonate? How else would our children carry our selfishly imposed legacy to ensure history remembers our actions? Remove the regulations, remove the history, remove the blind traditions - and we experience life within human instinct, creativity and expression - not as slaves to doctrine.

But how? How can one achieve this ideal while still regulated to communicate with the embedded teachings of canon law from centuries ago?

And what of our history then? What is the purpose of advancing our knowledge if it is not taught as doctrine? We must change the course of education - but that is a later discussion.

HV

Action!

You are, on average, recorded on camera 200 times per day. Try lying to the prosecutor as to your whereabouts between 2-4 a.m.

HV

The Wish

"I wish this would all turn out well." I stare at the page, at the words - and I simply wish this would all work itself out. It makes sense until I write it down. Then I'm forced to ask, "Does it make sense to you?" It doesn't matter to me, and it shouldn't matter in the end. But I toil over and over with the words and the future words - will it make sense? I remember being told, "If only one person gets it, then it's a success." I'm ok with that fact, but it has to make sense to more than just one person. Otherwise, its just a blog entry...

HV

This Here, Now

This all stems from something deeper, something greater that we fear. Inadequacy. Generations of failure followed by your own.

HV

To War!

Stop declaring 'war' on everything. Start employing solutions and safe guards. We have 'declared war' on too many non-physical entities for decades. War on Drugs, War on Poverty, War on Guns, War on Terrorism - and yet, there are still drugs, there is still poverty, there are still guns, and there is still terrorism; which suggests one inevitability: there will continue to be all of these intangibles until policies change, until mentality changes. You can't fight poverty, you can provide care and shelter against it. You can't fight drugs. They are grown, they are distributed - and they have been for centuries. You establish the reasons someone would even need drugs to begin with - and then you prevent that. You can't fight terrorism, you can quell its supplies, its reach and most importantly, its recruits with a message of respect, inclusion (or exclusion) and peaceful expression.

But you can't fight these things with a declaration. Terrorism is an ideal created by dedicated loyalists to a cause - no matter how skewed. You want to eliminate them - or any of these decade long 'wars'? Eliminate the cause. Eliminate the need. Eliminate the fear.

If we remain dedicated to the concept that with each new challenge, a forceful response is required then, by all means, lets go to 'war' on with anything against Us to sell Our ideal, Our advertisements, and a Our catch-line to march to. Its easier to promote intolerance than actually build a system to prevent it.

HV

Imagine

I was imagining the possibility of developing my creativity this week. I wanted to expand on some conceptual ideas I thought of this weekend by combining some elements of various art forms. I was hoping to sneak in some time to design some concepts or rework some previous ones for my portfolio. I've carried around my portfolio notes and sketches for days now. I keep getting interrupted by work. Meaningless, conventional work. The kind of work that will be arbitrarily revised to meet codes - to meet predestined conditions. And yet, when I do find a moment to do as I please, the meaningless work has negated my motivation. It always does. It always wins. And I seem to have no defense against the uninspired. Cyclical kills. That's why I seem to have to 'imagine the possibility of being creative'. I never get to.

HV

Reintroduction

Self-deception has led me here. I tried to get into this concept and it has failed - mostly. There is a delicate balance between private reflection and public exoneration. So I have decided to reintroduce and reinvigorate this with more dedication and more revelation that will help lead me to my ideals.

HV